Recently my life has been quite strange. Not in a way that I’m feeling lost and confused, but rather in a way that I find myself so much lately looking up at the vastness of the sky, just to give a big, fat “THANK YOU!” to the Universe for it has made no small effort to show me over and over again the magic it will bestow upon one’s life when you will just surrender and get the heck out of your own way!
For months I was wracking my brain feeling like I wasn’t serving my true purpose here on the planet. I get to help people in my current corporate job, but it doesn’t make me come alive, and it most certainly doesn’t make me want to yell from the rooftops how much I love what I do for a living. I’ve wanted to write a book for years, but lacked the motivation and the self-confidence to ever put much faith into making it a reality. So, there it sat on my shelf of pipe-dreams with so many others…until recently.
Around the holidays last year something deep within me shifted. A yearning for my authentic self to emerge took root and started sprouting quickly. I fell in love with this feeling of new-found possibilities, just by exploring the idea that maybe; just maybe, I could make my dreams come true after all. I started liking how it felt to think I actually was good enough and that people would want to read about what I had to say, rather than the usual negative self-talk feedback I’d often discourage myself with to keep the dream on the shelf where I could see it nice and neat.
I became an Editor here at CLN after answering a call from the awesome creators for much needed assistance as the site has grown tremendously. This completely rekindled my creative juices and has been a blessing in my life ever since. And one day soon after my birthday in January, I came across an email from Mike Dooley (the creator of Notes From the Universe) about an upcoming Writer’s Workshop in March here in Chicago where for two days you get to work with him and two other amazing Hay House authors learning how to refine and tune your writing skills as well as structure your manuscript to best present it to be published. And to top it off, they are offering the attendees a chance to actually be published with Hay House! SAY WHAT?
Needless to say, my jaw hit the floor. So, I have a few pro-active thoughts and this door opens up? OK, Universe you’ve got my attention. So, of course the good old ego jumps in with the fear-mongering of how the workshop is not really something I can afford right now and goes on to desperately try to remind me how much out of my league I will be among the other attendees. But instead of normally feeding it until it was full; I sent my ego home hungry and bit the bullet. I decided in that very instant that, “come hell or high water” I would be in attendance. I had NO idea how, but I didn’t care. I completely surrendered and just let it go refusing to worry about how it would all come together; just knowing that it would.
In that moment, I put my entire faith and trust that somehow, some way the Universe would conspire to make it happen for me. In my heart, I resonated so deeply with this that I just knew it would be my reality. And so it was, as I refused to accept anything else. And with this I gained such a greater understanding not only of myself and the world, but my place in it, and for the first time in my life I truly believed that I was deserving of stepping into that space I was destined to exist within, and the Universe gladly reflected that belief in not-so-subtle ways, only further instilling my trust in it.
Within the coming weeks I was flooded with inspiration and ideas on how to earn some extra money here and there and managed to save some as well, too via brainstorming some ways to stretch the most I could out of every dollar I had. I also changed the way I felt about money. Where it normally would’ve made me nervous, I felt excited to be spending this much on this workshop. Instead of seeing it as a hardship, I focused on the value. This was an investment in me and I was EXCITED! I just changed my perspective and my shift in every way that I could imagine and the Universe shifted right along with me.
I not only saved enough to pay for half of the cost of the workshop costs, but raised money by creating a T-shirt fundraiser online as well as selling some unwanted items on EBay. Before I knew it, I was there! What had once seemed an impossible feat had been accomplished! Overall…I just surrendered to the process and let the Universe do its thing, but what the initial and vital step was, was trusting and believing in myself. And perhaps the greatest lesson I learned in all of this is that the Universe is only ever trying to guide you towards your path of authentic destiny, it really doesn’t care if you’re happy or blue. It just responds to the inner calling of your soul, that voice that so often we do not hear ourselves. I’m just so grateful I finally stopped to listen.
Tamara Rant is a Co-Editor of CLN as well as a Licensed Reiki Master, heart-centered Graphic Designer and a progressive voice in social media activism & awareness. Connect with Tamara on Facebook by visiting Prana Paws/Healing Hearts Reiki or go to RantDesignMedia.com
Tamara posts new original articles to CLN every Saturday.
It is very very true.. When we want something badly the universe conspires to help us get it
I always look for your articles, enjoy reading and find them uplifting, thanks and good luck with publishing.