As I walk through these days, grieving the loss of my husband, I am comforted by my journal writings. I do my best to live each day in the present moment and also allow myself to feel the feelings and grieve. This is very important to my healing I believe. I am also supported by loving family and friends such as yourself. I feel your support, thank you!!
Here is an entry from my journal three years ago. It gives me great satisfaction and peace. I hope it does the same for you. I am sure it needs to be “cleaned up” a bit, but I hope you get the gist. Much love to you.
Being before Doing
Peace and contentment may be the greatest blessing in life, yet the path to experiencing it consistently is often challenging at times. When we can allow the flow of emotions, events, the extra curricular that weren’t planned as avenues to achieving the peace and contentment, then our experiencing is not the object, but the result. It’s not that bliss is forever our experience here on earth, but a feeling that all is as it should be at the moment is our experience. Having the knowing that all is as it should be equals to peace and contentment. This is not a cop out to life, but a path of navigation. There is no resistance, no hiding from the emotion, no denial, no blame, no urge to escape or run. There is no desire to be someone else, or be somewhere else. There is no feeling that another person or experience will complete us.
Ask Questions
When our emotions are in check and we experience this blissful state and then something begins to nag at us within, then we should be careful observers and ask questions. What am I to know in this moment, what am I being propelled toward? Is there a change, an action I need to perform? The first response is being, the next is action. Being is always an internal state and action is both internal and external. Action may involve prayer, love, compassion, or a physical act of service. The important part though is to precede action with being. Being is doing and from this place of flow; life is allowed to move with ease. Often we place too much importance on the action, rather than the being. When being precedes, action is fluid. It moves like the water in a stream, sometimes steady and sometimes pooled up and quiet. Both the movement and the quiet are beneficial.
Practicing
Entering the state of being first may come through practicing mindfulness and awareness. Then it may move to periodical, specific meditations, until then life becomes a mediation. This is the process of being. It involves stopping the chatter in the mind of expectations that have been forced or coerced that don’t belong. This is not to say that one should not follow the duties required, i.e., parenting, avenues for income, or for service to others. This is about knowing who you are and what you are to be about in this life you are experiencing. This knowing comes about from being. The best any of us can do in a day or in a life is to “work on our self”. This work is essential because that is how ‘being’ is formed, grown, shaped so that then the emotions experienced are then teachers and not antagonists.
The Present Moment
So now, back to the present moment. My son stopped by (an hour out of his way to visit me on my hill in the woods) and we had a very nice visit/dinner. He mentioned talking to a therapist and I replied to him, my Higher Self is my therapist. I get great thoughts about how to navigate this world every morning and it is so very encouraging. He shook his head with understanding.
A Question for YOU
How about you? Do you get downloads and encouragement from your higher self? I sure hope so, because we all are equipped with everything we need to know and be in this world. Be encouraged my friend, we are on the winning side. We will prevail. All is good, all is LOVE, all is peace. Much love to you, Julia
Julia Parsell is a Certified Holistic Health Counselor with an emphasis on the intersection of science and the sacred. She writes from experiences and transformative understandings that have led her to an authentic and peaceful life. She goes by these names: mother, grandmother, sister, aunt, niece, cousin, and friend. As home educator of her three children, she also developed/ran cafes, and maintained various leadership roles within her community. Her greatest desire is to encourage others to live life fully. Her passions are family, art creation, writing, and trail blazing. She loves her life in Western North Carolina. This is a new picture of me at the Grand Canyon with my long time pup, Rocky, 12.
