The Worry Haiku
Rabbit Hole of Worry
We are all subject to doubt and indecision from time to time. Especially during COVID, it’s easy to begin to wallow in worry and start down that dark rabbit hole. And perhaps it is the rabbit hole that will lead us to peace but not the dark hole of worry, rather the rabbit hole that takes us deep inside, into the only real place of solace.
A Different Rabbit Hole
Instead of trying to fix things, I simply looked at them. Maybe what I was fixing was my need to fix things. It took a while but I found some peace there in my heart. And in a moment of clarity, my mind recalled that all these temporary and illusorily (but still important) decisions and responsibilities about our current circumstances will be made clear the more I cultivate and understand that peace, that inner self. I realized that I didn’t need to make a decision or actions about those things now. That what I could to do is grow my relationship with what I call the True Self, the part that isn’t defined by all of these temporary details of those momentarily important decisions. I felt that perhaps whatever my decisions, actions, or endeavors I faced, when made based from a grounded place of inner-peace, will be the product of something trusted and sure. Also, when I looked at my decisions or problems from that place of real clarity, I could see how I was reacting to fears and worries instead of looking at these questions with objectivity where I could move forward with power and conviction. With that sure knowledge of seeing things as they are, I had the courage to step out to those precarious edges of potential, pushed by a power of my own grounded knowledge of Self.
And then suddenly there was no more searching because I’d momentarily found the source-it was right here all along. I’ve also discovered that when I’ve made a decision based on this knowledge of Self, it doesn’t exempt me from problems or struggles further down the road but at least I know that the difficulty I will encounter is necessary turbulence for the path I’ve chosen. It is the Tapas, the medicine, the heat necessary for transformation, that will continue to lead me down my path of self-discovery, the path that feels the most right to me because ultimately it is the product of my True Self.
And as I go that True Self whispers like Gandalf in my ear, “Speak your truth, act with honesty and integrity, and always listen.”
The Clash wails questions
Weighed down by indecision.
All things grow from Self.
This week let’s practice our relationship with that inner Self by listening to our bodies and breath.
The “There Is” Practice
Here’s a simple mindfulness practice you may enjoy which I call the “There Is” Practice
This mindfulness practice is excellent as a prep for Yoga Nidra as well as a beautiful independent meditation practice. It will help you to practice learning to witness the world just as it is without any judgments about it. Start by sitting comfortably with a cushion on the floor (a chair or couch works nice, too). Set a timer and start with a 10-minute practice. Increase the time as you like.
Close your eyes, and acknowledge all the things you are currently experiencing with the phrase “There Is” in your mind. In your mind, you might say, “There is the sound of traffic. There is apprehension. There is a 20-pound cat sitting in my lap and licking my big toe.” Anything you sense, feel, think, do, point to it with the phrase, “There Is . . . .”
2 guidelines: First, nothing is good or bad. It just is. Next, avoid the personal pronouns I, me, or my from what you perceive. Instead of “I feel happy,” it’s “There is happiness.” Erasing personal pronouns changes our understanding of what is as something that is more than what is only in relationship to ourselves. We change our relationship from an object where things happen to us into the subject of what experiencing everything.
Scott Moore is a senior teacher of yoga and mindfulness in the US (New York, Salt Lake City, LA) and abroad and the author of Practical Yoga Nidra: The 10-Step Method to Reduce Stress, Improve Sleep, and Restore Your Spirit. When he’s not teaching or conducting retreats, or traveling to teach, he also writes for Yogi Times, Conscious Life News, Elephant Journal, Mantra Magazine, Medium, and his own blog at scottmooreyoga.com. Scott also loves to run, play the saxophone, and travel with his wife and son. Check out his yoga retreats and trainings in places like Tuscany, France, and Hong Kong , his online Yoga Nidra Course and his Yoga Teacher Mentor Program. Scott just moved back to Salt Lake City after living in Southern France with his family.