Living Your Purpose… ON PURPOSE._Featured_, Inspirational, Spirituality Sunday, October 21st, 2012
Do we all have a purpose? Are we all meant to be or do something specific in this lifetime? While there are varying opinions on the subject, I truly believe the answer is a resounding YES. I also believe we have all been blessed with particular gifts that sit inside of us like seeds. These seeds wait patiently for us to nurture them into young sprouts that eventually come into full bloom into our lives, as purpose.
I learned early in life that writing is just one of my gifts and on Christmas Eve, December 24th 2011, I came to realize another gift… the gift of healing through touch. I learned that I am a healer, a conduit for loving, divine, healing energy and that my purpose on earth is to help assist others in physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual healing.
I came to this realization as I was giving a massage to a friend of a friend. She was a special girl. Yes, we are all special in God’s eyes. However, she was the first person I worked on who was aware of her gifts. She acknowledged them at an early age and has lived with them for well over half of her life. In addition to practicing Reiki, she is a gifted clairvoyant who can see your past lives just as clear as the present. I was actually unaware of her gifts until the massage began. So, as always, I set my intention, called in my angels, and began the massage…
Within a few minutes I began to feel some tingling sensations through out my body, and as I stroked her back, sending intentions of love, my body began to vibrate, and a shiver ran down my spine, through my hands, and into her body. She reacted immediately and commented that she could feel energy running through her. Soon she started seeing visions of my past lives. Mind you, this was only the second time we had met. The first time was for only 3 hours in a “haunted” house in the hills of Old Hollywood. So, it’s fair to say she knew little-to-nothing about me but was still able to tell me my nationality and read my past lives, confirming or me what my Reiki teacher told me 9 months prior. How did she know I was Egyptian? I have light olive skin and a Roman nose that makes me even less Egyptian than my Irish name… Kevin.
Back to the story… As I continued to massage her, I increased the frequency of my intentions. Each time my body would respond with what felt like a surge of energy through my body and into hers. She remarked that she could feel Reiki energy move through her body, relaxing her muscles and nerves as it tingled its way through. At one point my hands stopped on their own accord over her left LS junction (small of her back). My eyes rolled back into my head as an even STRONGER wave of energy (unlike any “chills” I have ever felt) moved through my body and into hers. It was so intense that my eyes began to water to the point of not being able to see without blinking 100 times/second. And just as the tears dried up another surge of energy would rush through me. It was quite an intense experience.
I know from my readings and the teachings of masters that LOVE is the highest vibrational energy, so a simple unspoken thought “I LOVE YOU” sent chills throughout my entire body, while the energy directed itself into hers. The rush of energy was unlike anything I had ever experienced to this point, but something SHE was VERY familiar with. At one point she began to release old feelings of a family member with whom she had difficulty communicating. She clearly saw a picture of this person and she remarked that it was helping her to release the negative emotions and feelings that no longer served her highest good. This energy exchange continued throughout the entire massage.
That experience SHOWED me that I am in fact a healer (a conduit of healing energy) and I am forever grateful to her for her insight, ability, and confirmation of my true self and purpose. To know that I am more than just a cog in the wheel of some seemingly purposeless corporation is priceless. Having looked back on my life, the signs were always there. I just wasn’t always looking, listening, or REMEMBERING them. Now… I’m all “ears”.
Allow me a moment to take you on a short trip… my journey into purpose.
In the summer of 2010 I had a clairvoyant experience. I had no idea what a clairvoyant experience was, let alone what “clairvoyant” meant, but that experience was to change my life, forever. It was a simple message… NURTURE. More intriguing to me than the message was the method by which it was communicated. It all happened in an instant. I was with a close friend, and we were involved in an intimate situation… As we were forehead-to-forehead deep breathing, it happened. The room turned completely white (BRIGHT WHITE) as if I was standing an inch away from a freshly painted white wall. Looking back now, it seemed as though it was portrayed that way so that I would clearly see the word as it ran across my forehead from right to left as in a marquee.
I was no longer seeing my physical eyes and even lost sight of my friend (who was directly in front of me at the time). Even though it happened in an instant, it was obvious to her (from the look in my eyes) that I was not “present” in the room for that second. My vision, my hearing, and my sense of space had all been paused for that second as well. All of my senses were switched off, with exception to my vision. And here’s the kicker… The word that was strewn across my field of vision was not in line with where my physical eyes are positioned in my head. I clearly remember feeling as though I had to move my physical eyes upward just to read the word as it ran across my forehead… NURTURE…
Just as quickly as my physical senses were paused, they returned, and she asked me what I had seen? I was in shock! And what’s more… how did she even know that I “saw” anything at all. She replied that I was “gone” for a second and repeated the question, “What did you see?” as if this was a normal occurrence for her. Visibly shaken, I told her that I saw the word NURTURE, but that it was above where my physical eyes were located. I was little freaked out, but was MORE intrigued than anything.
She then shared, “You’re clairvoyant, it’s OK… don’t freak out.” Easy for her to say. The last thing I needed in my life was another challenge to my normalcy. You see, I lost the vision in my right eye almost overnight when I was 13 years old in such a manner that it baffled doctors from all over the world. It left my appearance, well let’s just say, different. I had to live with that look from 13 until I was about 30 years old when I had to remove my right eye and replace it with a prosthetic. At that point the decision was not made for aesthetic reasons, but rather for comfort, as there was a chronic pain that had developed as a result of the surgeries 17 years prior and the aging oil in the vitreous cavity of my eye.
I digress… my intrigue quickly turned to obsession, and I began my journey. I sought out and devoured every bit of information that I could with respect to clairvoyance. It turns out that clairvoyance was just the spark that lit the fire of my desire to know more about the mysterious of our “humanity”.
That quest led me on a journey that continues to this day. However, along that journey many opportunities to learn and experience had presented themselves to me and I was receiving guidance at every turn helping me to better understand my experience. I also believe that it was preparing me to understand the unfolding of my life purpose.
Early on in my journey, I was guided to seek the counsel of a local angel reader in Hollywood (Love you Jenna!), who then communicated to me that my angels wanted me to have my aura read at the Aura Shop in Santa Monica which, in turn led me to a group talk/reading at the at the Bodhi Tree Annex in West Hollywood. That talk led me to take a Reiki workshop, and ultimately back to the Aura Shop for a special visit/talk/reading by Doreen Virtue (angel reader extraordinaire).
Doreen introduced herself, talked about the angelic realm, and then picked 4 “random” people (from a group of 40+) for which to give readings. I was the 3rd person she chose and I asked my purposefully-vague question, “Am I supposed to be doing what I am doing now, or something else?” She giggled and replied with a very clear message from my angels. She said, “Your angels have a sense of humor… They are showing me a broken record… Have you been asking this question of many people recently?” It was true, I was asking every “psychic” I knew in the past 2 months at this point and had even taken a Reiki Level 1 course with Rosemary McArthur (The Celtic Lady). My angels told Doreen that I already been told numerous times what my purpose is and that I can stop asking everyone I came across. Then she said it in words… “You are a healer, Kevin.” I burst into tears because she had just confirmed for me what every other source before her had also expressed to me. It now FELT true.
I was floored and totally overwhelmed with emotion trying to “be a man” and control my tears. My efforts were in vain as my eyes and my heart swelled with joy, excitement, and even a little fear. At the same time I even felt extreme love and was excited to finally get the final confirmation of my purpose.
So I began to read and seek out everything I could about angels and bought a heap of Doreen’s books. What type of healer was I to be? How was I to know my next step??? I began to pray for the answer and it was given to me… repeatedly, until I finally listened and enrolled in massage school. The synchronicities (coincidences) were flooding in at such a rate that I could (and even may) write an entire book about the guidance and confirmations I received as a result of following my guidance.
I tell this story, not because I am more special than any else in the world, but because YOU NEED TO KNOW, that you TOO have a purpose, and it is waiting for you. All you have to do is ask the question and you will soon find yourself living the answer (thanks Deepak).
I feel like my story has just begun. And at the ripe age of 34, I am totally open to starting over completely. Because I KNOW, that as long as I continue along my path, the next steps will always be lit up for me and there is no longer a reason to fear. This kind of peace can only come from knowing that you are living your purpose… ON PURPOSE.
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